My favorite part about this nuttiness called ART is that A is getting a much closer, more focused view of the cellulite on my thighs than I ever hoped he would. The thing is that it’s the fattiest, least unattractive parts that are also the least painful places to receive shots.
I mean, we’ve been together for over eleven years, so it is not as though he hasn’t seen my whole body, but I have to wonder how having to really LOOK at the least attractive part of my body affects his view of my sexuality, you know?
At first this process was kind of exciting and I didn’t mind the shots. But now that we’re doing Cetrotide in the morning, two shots of Follistim in the evening, and we have to add one of Luveris tomorrow night, I’m growing weary. I feel like a human pincushion and we’re running out of injection sites on my hips and thighs so I think I’m going to have to cave on the whole no shots in the stomach thing tomorrow.
At least I got to remove that nasty old Climera patch. It was kind of stinky when I pulled it off, too. Blech. I put the new one on my back, where I don’t have to look at it.
I really don’t feel like I can go on, even though I know that of course I will. If you are in the mood to cheer lead, this would be a good time for that.
(This is small stuff, I know. I’m *still* thankful for my life.)
These long protocols really taking the stuffing out of you. I remember with my second IVF (the one that went well) I was sort of enjoying the shots, feeling like I was actully doing something, and then I hit a point where I just didn’t want to do it any more.
three cheers for the belly! Just pinch and punch! Stay at least an inch and half away from teh belly button. Also, this will preserve that precious hip area from those lovely PIO shots after the retrieval and before the transfer and beyond(or whatever it is you end up doing…still remains to be seen).
YOU CAN DO IT!
I wish I could offer you some cheer, but I feel the same way. At the very least, perhaps misery loves company?
Hang in there–I remember the shot ennui well. Although I certainly wasn’t rose colored in the moment, I honestly think doing the shots helped my husband feel like he was part of the process and in a fox hole kind of way, brought us closer together. Also, I got so used to showing him the parts of my body that I previously tried to camouflage that somewhere along the way I forgot that I was supposed to be embarrassed by them.
Don’t feel badly about crabbing about this stuff. We know how thankful you are for what you have. It doesn’t mean this part doesn’t suck.
You’ll get through it, I promise. And whatever happens, you’ll know you did all you could, and that is saying something.
Yeah, the four-shots-a-day days are not too fun. Human pincushion is a good analogy. Hoping it will all be worth it for you!!!
You are amazing and strong. Oh I would be such a *ussy about all this stuff. You rock the IVF!