(After a 90 minute wait at Grand Central Station in Dr. Nice’s waiting room, exam room, and ultrasound room) he and the ultrasound tech couldn’t see a damn thing. Which is exactly why I am glad I self-prescribed yesterday’s beta, because we needed another point of data.
Dr. Nice’s hypothesis: Since my uterus lining is very thin, but my numbers are still going up, he thinks that it’s an ectopic, and the bleeding last week was my uterus sloughing off its lining, but not the embryo. I think that sounds logical.
My options were:
1. Do the methotrexate today
2. Do more bloodwork tomorrow morning, and if it’s still going up, do the meth tomorrow
3. Wait and see and monitor (basically hope this will resolve on its own)
We are going with the in-between option 2, which just feels like a stay of execution to me because I will fall out of my chair if I get a lower beta tomorrow. After this, they follow up with blood work on days 4 (Tuesday) and 7 (Friday). If the beta goes down, I can expect to finally miscarry in a couple of weeks. If it goes up, I will shoot myself.
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What I need from you guys now is this: Accounts of experience with the meth that do not include the words “I thought I was going to die,” “I’ve never felt so horrible in all my life,” or similar. Truly, if you don’t have anything reassuring to say, don’t say anything at all. Dr. Nice claims those adverse reactions are very rare, and as much as I love and trust him, and even though it’s his birthday, I don’t believe him.
