The whole idea that I am leaving my job is starting to really sink in, and I’m getting more and more comfortable with it. It’s kind of nice sitting in meetings and thinking that I won’t have to actually deal with this problem or that. Not that there won’t be problems at the next job, of course, but it won’t be these particular problems.
Of course, it’s kind of strange to start a new job right before I’d like to get pregnant, but I figure people do that all the time. I am just hoping that I feel well enough to work hard straight through, and I’m planning to come back and work there for a long time after a maternity leave. We will push the IUI off from February to April to give me a few months to focus, and of course there’s no telling if and when I’ll get and stay pregnant. May the worst problem I have be to get pregnant right after starting the new job!
If I don’t have cervical cancer, that is. UGH! I had a pap smear a couple of weeks ago and I came home today to a voicemail from the doctor’s office. I realized I hadn’t gotten that little envelope back with my results that say it’s all okay. The nurse said it is nothing to worry about, she just had some information for me, but my mind has already gone through to, 1) so much for having a second child; 2) oh shit! I’m kind of unemployed for a few weeks and I’m sure I’m not eligible for disability in the new job; and 3) I could die. Sigh. It’s gonna be a long night.
